*Note: These are my feelings and thoughts, not anyone else’s, especially not any other trans person’s. So, don’t use this as an excuse to call all trans people, or all trans women weak. If you do, you are an asshole. Full Fucking Stop* I am an author and poet. I am an advocate and ally … Continue reading Can’t I be fragile sometimes, too?
So, I have some family that is resistant to using my pronouns and calling me Justice; instead using my birth name and pronouns. While most of you will find it hard to believe that I have a hard (almost impossible) time speaking up when they are misgendering me and deadnaming me, what with how outspoken, … Continue reading What may be…
So, I was asked a few different questions about my experience as a Trans Woman. I am going to try to answer one (or more, but let's be honest, I am verbose, so...) of them every day until I am through them. The first one is: Do you feel like you were socialized differently from … Continue reading A Boy Shaped Costume
So, a friend asked me today why I identify as a trans woman instead of as just a woman, because it seems like I am separating/sub-categorizing myself. I could have just commented, but instead, I decided to write it out thoughtfully. There are many reasons, and it is a choice I made, and make on … Continue reading I am a Trans Woman, and this is why
Random thought that I had yesterday. I am going to preface this with, not attacking anyone, just something that I have been reflecting on and made me think. I also could be just overthinking this, as I am apt to do at times, so please let know your thoughts. If however, you see this as … Continue reading Reflections on Easter
Who is the one that you are? Are they near Or are they far? What has kept you from finding them? I would guess that it is fear. Do you really want to live your life for someone else, Giving up parts of yourself with nothing in return? Instead, why not be true, instead of … Continue reading Let your being fly free
So, yesterday, I received an email. Nothing abnormal about that, except for 4 things.1) It was from an old family friend who I haven't seen or spoken to in years, and would have no way to get the email address they sent it to, except by getting it from someone.2) They somehow knew that I … Continue reading An Open Letter to People that Don’t Know Me, and Judge Me with No Information
Vanquished, lying in the dirt,No more energy left.Unable to give any more to his facademade of dreams, wishes, and ideals.Totally bereft,And done with the lies of his Godof times past.Arising from the corpse,She emerges at last.She cannot hide herself anymore,no matter the consequences,She is who he truly was at his core.She is finally able to … Continue reading Arising from the corpse
Visceral,Empirical,Whimsical.How was I created:Nurture, Nature, or Trauma?I have tradedSo much of myself, to avoid drama. No more.It is time to even the score. No longer will I minimize myselfAnd place who I really am upon the shelf.Spending all of my energyAvoiding being me.Finding the truth in who I am,Is not quiet, like a lamb,But loud, … Continue reading Nurture, Nature, or Trauma?
The last 18 months have been some of the hardest, but most rewarding of my life. I realized a lot of things about myself and the world about me. Not just that I am a Bisexual Transgender Woman, that is probably the biggest one, but many other things as well. In all of the self … Continue reading Mutterings and Musings of a Merry Maiden