So, today being International Women's day, I have been thoughtful all day. Last year, I went to the local march, even though it was excruciatingly cold. I felt like I didn't belong, or like I was an imposter, because I didn't grow up in a body like theirs, and because I still had the benefits … Continue reading Reflections on Womanhood
Who is the one that you are? Are they near Or are they far? What has kept you from finding them? I would guess that it is fear. Do you really want to live your life for someone else, Giving up parts of yourself with nothing in return? Instead, why not be true, instead of … Continue reading Let your being fly free
Victory! Euphoria! Magic! Tragic! Loss! Disheartened! Joy! Love! Hate! Emptiness! All of these and more, Are what life has in store For those that continue the ride Even when it feels like everything has been tried. I say to you my friend, Press on! This is not the end, This is barely the beginning. Even … Continue reading Press on!
What is the meaningOf all of the unknowns,And how do you findIn what direction it leans?Finding direction in a worldSo scattered and coldFilled with issues so burledIt seems insurmountable, when everythingIs bought and sold. How can you place value onIngenuity,Fantasy,Imagination,and love,When it seems as if friendly cooperation is gonefrom existence, and crushed from above?These are … Continue reading Focusing On The Gurney
Vanquished, lying in the dirt,No more energy left.Unable to give any more to his facademade of dreams, wishes, and ideals.Totally bereft,And done with the lies of his Godof times past.Arising from the corpse,She emerges at last.She cannot hide herself anymore,no matter the consequences,She is who he truly was at his core.She is finally able to … Continue reading Arising from the corpse
Visceral,Empirical,Whimsical.How was I created:Nurture, Nature, or Trauma?I have tradedSo much of myself, to avoid drama. No more.It is time to even the score. No longer will I minimize myselfAnd place who I really am upon the shelf.Spending all of my energyAvoiding being me.Finding the truth in who I am,Is not quiet, like a lamb,But loud, … Continue reading Nurture, Nature, or Trauma?
Beating the screamsOut of my dreams,Destroying the vision of what I have beenTime to buck this trend.Where am I going, where will this lead?No idea, but going to make this world bleedNot in a violent way,but adding colour to my world of grey.Time keeps ticking on, as I re-create myself;Taking things I ignored off of … Continue reading Beating the Screams Out of My Dreams
This is a poem that I wrote a few weeks ago about the last year, and coming to terms that I am a Transgender Woman. Hope that you enjoy (Copyright 2019 under Creative Commons). Am I rightIn taking flight?In being true to myselfI have had to break the oldConceptions of what is trueAnd Be Bold.Destroying … Continue reading What dreams may come
I wrote this back in 2009 - originally posted on my DeviantArt. Like the earth floating through the atmosphereor man as he searches for the truth,the beginning of the ending,nothing is clear... What is happening now, nothing makes senseI don't know what's going onPlease lift the drifting, dripping fogfrom over my kind of guy,the kind … Continue reading The swinging of my soul
Written in 2011 - Originally posted on my DeviantArt. Working towards an ends,Alienating all of my true friends,Living with self as the most important thingMy past makes me think of Gollum and the Ring. Evil, twisted, and sadistic thinking,And that was when I wasn't drinking! Now that I have found the way,I don't have to … Continue reading A Retrospective Introspective